Saturday, December 19, 2009

OH !!!.....2009

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
i learnt swimming ( now i can fight before i get flushed away :P ).

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i wanted to loose weight n ended up gaining some ..i guess i will make more resolutions for next yr, tht motivates me to eat some yummy food
, guess i might even get a six pack gotta give it a thought

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
naa ..but i guess some mosquitos under my bed did .. i hope tht counts

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes ,,,,sure was a nice lady

5. Did you murder anyone?
not my fault tht i look like a monster, does not mean u can ask me anything

6. Which important global event touched you most?
Michael jackonz death.. loved the way he moved, kindda miss him not tht he used to share a coffee with me everyday but i still do.
every single time when sachin scaored a century mood wld go ginga la la
Copenhagen climate change... finally the biggies care about the environment

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
i cant remember one date ..oh ya april 1st, NO thts not my bday

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
iam a MCA now ( not boasting one bit ) n ya i won this award "best photographer of the year" given by NATIONAL GEO CHANNEL, truly in my dreams

9. What was your biggest failure?
haven’t been THE ONE yet

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
no injuries except for shoe bite n illness been quite well all this yr but while iam writing this my nose is running a marathon .

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
i really dont know, i celebrate on every bubble burst.. love to keep the smiles going

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
all the so called religious communities n ya some very 3rd grade politicians ... son of a looser ( iam sure none has used this one b4, a inventor is born)

14. Where did most of your money go?
i really did not have much money but i still guess it all went on food ....i keep getting these forwarded mails which says bill gates is sharing his property..thts a ray of
hope ( i wanna belive thts real)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
every single time when i book my tickets home ...i feel great abt gettin out of this bad food city blore n reachin to some really awesome home cooked food ..Heaven

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
wake up sid : iktara

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
i was having a ball at this time last year ( i was still in college) ...things change gotta deal wit it

19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Pasted a lot more smiles n felt happy about it

20. What do you wish you'd done less of?
loose temper on my mom ...she definitely does not deserve it ..its not completely her fault tht i look like a monster

21. How will you be spending Christmas?
will hope tht santa thinks i have been good this yr ..n gift me a Nikon D90, santa are u reading this ..oye santa singh not u yaar the Christmas wala

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
kindda was more like humty dumptyz great fall

23. How many one night stands?
almost every month until i finished college ...oye gallat nahi samajne ka..had to sleep with my text books when i read them all night long :P

24. What was your favourite TV programme?
strangely after all this years ... i really feel the idiot box has truly turned into one.

26. What was the best book you read?
read a lot i guess shantaram was good some from chetan bhagat "3 mistakes of my life " turned out to be one of my mistakes

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
i can never sing in tune, iam like the biggest besura born under the sun

28. What did you want and get?
i wanted to be Mr me ... n i guess, i have lived by my rules ( no rules ...rules r only for oldies who cant jump the fence )

29. What did you want and not get?
thats a long list ...iam super greedy say the least i want a nikon d90 n also wanted to be as strong as HULK ( dnt ask me why )

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY ( no movie has ever scared me ..but this one managed to )

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
spent recalling my last few bdayz which rocked ..saad i must say .. i turned 24

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Earning some moola so tht i could look my responsibilities in the eye

34. What kept you sane?
dont hurt my emotions :P.... have always been insane, doctor says therez no hope

37. Who was the worst new person you met?
The auto guy who looted me in blore, took 30 bucks when he had to just drop me 10 feet away ( a new fool was in town then )

38. Who was the best new person you met?
i havent met much ppl this year ...but iam lucky i usually meet the chosen one(s) :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
life can treat you bad ,,,all thanks to my friends n family who try to make it a joy ride .....n ya how can i forget KFC Zinger burger is yummy

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
' smiles came free, along were thee
Sunshine every morning, frown went flee
n then...pals lost me, memories brought glee
in the fight for smiles aint free
- kaveer

Monday, November 23, 2009



I was at the Bangalore KSRTC bus stop waiting for my bus to arrive i had no place to sit, so had to stand of course ( i didn’t want to choose the sleeping on the floor option). while i was having this unnecessary thought in my head, a guy from the shop behind started shouting at me for blocking his shop’s view i stared at him wondering am i that huge or is he retarded ( i loved my second option, coz if i did choose the first option i had to diet). Actually while i was staring at him i could not help noticing the samosa which looked hot ( i don’t mean the hot from hot n sexy) so after a wild thought of consuming the product i looked at my watch which struck 9:30 PM and by bus would not reach here before 10:30 PM, it’s not my fault i reached early what would i do if the traffic was not of its daily standards ( iam sure a lot of people were on sick leave like they usually do on Fridays ). Before i forget let me get back to the samosa which was waiting for me and i could not ignore it anymore, so i decided to block the view of shop again only to be greeted happily this time with a mineral water bottle almost on my face followed with scream SAR SAAR COLD DRINKS ( but he still was holding a bottle of mineral water ) i did not care about what he was selling i ordered for a samosa n chai and and he sure gave me all that i asked him for but however the samosa did turn out cold and the chai was very sweet to me but i managed to drink it all and ate the cold to death samosa i knew nothing comes for Rs 10 in Bangalore , he said SAAR 12 Rupees (like i said nothing comes for Rs 10).

I was still standing and i saw a old man leaving his seat and a guy shamelessly jumped into the seat and rested his butt comfortably and ya the guy was me, after feeling the comfort i just hoped the old man would not return (if he does ill have do the good guy act n offer him his throne) , then suddenly like there was some plague in the area two more seats got vacant next to me and while i was giving a thought of shifting the seat ( just to feel not guilty about stealing the throne from a old guy),the seats got refilled by 2 Americans who had a lot of guide books like i had in my high school for every subject they did a deep research on goa and were planning the tour while all the people passing gave the woooo whaaa looks while i behaved like a good Indian in his best posture represented India for good behaviour ( in short for a change i was behaving weird ), just then i saw this man walking next to us who just threw away Indian fashion to the most stinky dustbin, he was wearing a yellow corduroy pant and a shirt with zebra like stripes of colour golden and black ( that was a visual torture to say the least). Time passed quite quickly than i expected and the bus was there waiting for its most prestigious passenger to arrive (a lil pat on my own back for being prestigious).

My seat number was 40 next to the window and i just seem to have missed the last row i felt lucky, i getting comfortable on my seat only to nice that the window of my seat was all blurred with scratches and all i could see is a 3D film without the glasses and then i leaned back only to find my shirt wet because of some leakage from the AC (i told me myself FELT LUCKY A LIL TOO EARLY grrrrr) then i managed the tourist attraction the water fall somehow with the blankets given, so now i did not have blankets for the actual purpose that showed in few moments as my teeth did some chattering sound without me ordering them to do so. Suddenly i remember a friend’s birthday and i made sure i had to stay awake till 12, i could not see out and strain my eyes, could not sit numb coz i would fall asleep, could not dance coz i did not have enough space to keep my legs dancing is never an option..And suddenly the person sitting next to me finds a good pillow to rest on, my shoulder. And he was quite happy using it like it was his @#$%%#%# property i tried moving my shoulder but the guy wouldn’t move and when i was doing this i see a huge dark guy sitting right behind me and so i could not use the luxury of push back in my seat, he wore a XXXL shirt so i did not see a point asking him to move his big belly or even get punched by him so spent the rest of the time cursing him and the other sticky stuck on my shoulder .i looked at my watch again that moved real slow like a snail in the wall ( i added the watch to my curse list).

Out of nowhere there was this huge roar i looked around n thought must be a mobile ring tone but then it repeated only to my surprise that the sound wasn’t a roar it was snore from the local back seat hulk ( i had answers for ..What can we do if Godzilla visits us again??... We have a matching roar to shhh it away) and the snore had a weird pattern, the sound went loud n then low n then a pause for like 5 sec giving you a hope that it’s the end it won’t happen again , however even before you finish your flowery thought you get kicked by a even louder snore and your hopes are brutally murdered while this continued the time was 12 :15 i thought i should call my friend n wish her and then i struggle to pickup my mobile from my pocket all thanks to the guy on my shoulder and the pushback seat luxury which the guy in front of me could use so he was kindda sleeping on my lap and my fingers struggle to reach my pocket and in the process of trying to pull the cell phone out my fingers loose grip and at 12 :30 in the night i was playing this game “feel n guess the object “ i got a shoe a water bottle a plastic bag all that and more before i found my mobile in the dark and final i called with the background score of Jurassic park, but my friend did not pick my call i called again and the same result again ( what a it truly her birthday ..ya it was, she had it as a part of her email id too)..then i quit calling her and had a good thought of getting some good sleep only if the hulk or the hybrid Tarzan stops his wild roar, all night i spent closing my ears with both the hands and did all possible things to put myself to sleep (no did not sing lori to myself) but the snore overpowered everything, and then came a moment the guy woke up and was getting down from the bus ( i thought i should have wished for million dollars but this one pleased me equally) i almost did the chicken dance and shouted yes yes yes yes there u go u looser in my mind( i still knew he wore XXXL shirt in the mind was perfect) and then the magic happens i get some good sleep and the sticky guy had sat straight giving my shoulders some rest, was all happy as things were falling into place and then the unthinkable happened the god of sleep hugged me tight . Just then my phone rings and my sleep i wake up with my eyes heavy too see the birthday gal had called me back to say thank you i cut short the talking and promised her to call next day in the morning .. and was soo sure nobody is gonna bother my sleep now and i remembered the Godzilla is now extinct so i could use the push back, i was even more happy to receive some luxury ( god just couldn’t see me happy for a sec that night ) the bus jumped over a pot hole on the road and a tumbler of water splashed on my face, thanks to the leakage ( all the stored water choose to leak all at once). tossed away all my hopes of a good sleep .just then the sticky guy finds my lap more comfortable than my shoulder and settles down there ....i did not sleep that night but made sure the sticky guy stayed away... this is exactly how it looks when all tht shouldn’t happen , happens. i'am sure someone upstairs beyond the clouds had his share of fun .

Thursday, May 7, 2009

vanished into the void

Vanished into the void -KAVEER

They have moved in my mom said, the most awaited neighbours. For a sane reason the neighbours were talk of the colony as they moved in to the newly built house which was just the very next house i saw the house when it was just sand n mud growing to a huge monster size castle and then been painted too and now iam seeing it get filled with humans too four of them to be precise a mom, a dad and 2 kinds, the couple were doctors and that named the place doctors house.

A week later my sister comes to me and tells me about the dog they owned and like always she showered praises and twinkles and red shining cherry on top in short every dog she sees gets to be the most beautiful dog ever, when people say every dog has its day they do mean something but this time it was a little more than a praise that how they found the dog or rather how the dog found them. One day a man visits his daughter whose a doctor and that evening he sees a dog limping and bleeding feels his share of pity on it and also does a little more than that he treats the dog and help it heal its wound, and the dog decides to stay back guarding their house, it was loved by everyone in the house and when the doctors moved to their new home it moved along. Hence i was hearing to this story. Just had to listen, sometimes sisters can get bossy if you didn’t know.

And then there came a day when i was walking back home from college and while i was passing by the doctors house there i saw this twinkling eyes giving me a lazy stare but the creature to which the eyes were attached wasn’t that pretty truly a filthy looking female dog muddy brown colour black nose and totally out of shape, the ears looked like folded pages of the book and tail which looked like it was badly glued to its back by someone who did not know much about how dogs look, in short it was like a experiment gone wrong.

Being a dog person i wouldn’t hate many ya dogs in the first sight but this one i did just because it looked bad. And like all other dogs this one was close to my sister and walked her back from the main road of our colony to the house every single time she walked down from college and then she would feed her with something nice sometimes she wouldn’t mind snatching my meal away to feed the dog they were good with each other already but i still hated it just for the way it looked only thing that would keep me interested was its twinkling eyes they had soo much to say. It’s always been like i heard a lot about their encounters with the dog and how good it was to them or rather how smartly it behaved. also there were enough people who thought why was this ugly looking dog which my sister called cute was in the doctors house aren’t doctors supposed to be hygienic less know to the people that they were but just that dog needed a makeover to go with the doctors image.

Somehow it knew whom it should bark on and whom it shouldn’t and strangely it picked me in the list of not to bark on thanks to my sister who bribed it enough to recognise me and may be it hoped he would feed something to me someday , it now started to spend enough time at my place too my mom got attached to it too, my mom was never a cat or dog person or at least she portrays herself so .but now she had someone who would stand outside the kitchen door for regular lunch and dinner and if my mom was late the dog would start its hungry howl alarm to which mom usually responded and also told others proudly about it. Mean while even i some had fallen to the magic being a dog person it was easy to ignore the looks and go for the character and the gratitude it showed the twinkling eyes and the expressive face of the dog just could not let me hate it anymore everyday when i was done with my dinner the bones and thorns in my plate would reach the dog for having a reputation to keep up as a person who eats anything given has a corner in me which said the dog is waiting outside it was more of a house dog and must confess the laziest ever seen unless it saw something bad coming .

The street kids had named it the doctor dog (a MBBS for free) and it also scared them away each time they came close to pull its tail or throw stones and mostly it would be my mom who would rescue the kids buy commanding the dog to stay quiet and it would faithfully obeyed and the commanding proved costly to my mom as once a lady in the passing buy shouted at my mom “can’t you tie up your dog why let your dog wander “, she was speechless just did not want to say it isn’t mine i guess.

Years passed by and people who regularly come to our house knew it well and now it just wasn’t my sister who it walked along it came along me too each time i walked back from college but i still hadn’t changed did not give anything all i did was eat myself and if it did make any pity full faces felt sad for it n would give a share of anything i was eating , there were even times that i spoke to the dog like it was a human while it spent all that time staring at me, once me and my sister even tried to get the dog out of its lazy grove so tired doing some dog tricks holding a biscuit about our waist height so that it could jump and grab it, instead it waited looking to the floor trusting gravity it mostly believed in why waste energy when gradually the food has to fall on the floor and we never won that battle we always ended up feeding it with the food we were holding , at the same time cursing it for being such an ass. But it choose to ignore it all and look back at us with a twinkle and my sister simply could not resist saying “how cuteeeeeee” while choose to be manly and said nothing even when i was under the spell.

You could find it around you wagging its strange looking tail during any function or get together it was always there made it feel that it was a important person in the gathering less dog like and more human like behaviour i always knew it behaved well just because it was lazy to do anything else usually the other dogs choose to jump off the compound wall but this gave a good stare at the wall n then decides to sneak under the front gate and many ya times got stuck in between but somehow managed to pull itself out with a big noise. As days passed it understood what we said it got up went outside the gate when it was told to do so and at times even before we tell it to start it would finish off eating .it was always there when we needed it or did not need it.

Time passed days rolled and the dog had been doing all the necessary deeds that made us love it even more sometimes even i said it was cute . Then there came a time when i had to go to Bangalore for few months for my academic reasons and i used to come home once in a month or so , once when i came down i reached home early in the morning and was happy about coming back home but missed something , there existed a void and i did not realise what was the reason and then after a day passed i had my lunch and had was about to throw the fish thorns to the dustbin it reminded me about the dog so i went out gave a glace but could not find it, thought must have had a heavy lunch already and snoring at the doctors house. I ask my sisters how come the dog isn’t here at this time.

Her eyes go a little moist when she says it’s no more alive it was killed for some sane reasons. It struck me real hard when she said that i was filled with tears too and it isn’t easy for me while iam writing this either iam not ashamed to say today that i miss that ugly dog. my sister continues, the dog had cancer and it wouldn’t move much like it used to and would also be seen less and recently it had started to rot and here on was told that each of its organ would rot one after the other and hence would lead to death and it was not avoidable, so the doctors decided to let the dog go and not prolong its sufferings. The people assigned for the job came to the door step the dog was sitting outside the door trying to bark at the strangers for the one last time while it did not know who they were.

The dog was given a strong dose of anaesthesia but the twinkle in its eye did not fade away, it did not close its eyes which was not a normal behaviour after a heavy dose it kept staring at the doctors and their kids while they were in tears looking at their loved one for the last time. it never blinked away a look seemed like it did not want to miss a thing, as it closed its eyes they carried the dog away where it would then be injected to release its soul, it was hard for me to hear all this i walked around my house where i could usually see the dog and missed its presence and wished it could have been alive i would have still called it a ugly looking dog while it would look back at me and make sure i change my words. The dog that lived its life and made a difference in ours, it was just more than” just any dog to us “, Subbi you will be remembered.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


Sometimes you find love 
sometimes you dont 
sometimes you say it out loud 
sometimes you wont 

i found love,i lost love
couldnt live without ,i called out for love 
its a creepy feeling hoping to regain love 
when i had a chance i did nt scream out loud
seems like its too late and sunz gone down  

now i see my whole world is fallen apart
still cant erase u away from my heart 
never will i tell, how much i miss you 
all tht hurts stay within me, never let it hurt you 
memory from my past haunt me
i scream out loud with pain within me 

even today when i see you smile 
i cross barriers and walk for a mile
i tried killing myself many ya times
heartz just selfish to see you one more time

but wont let you know how much i love you 
all i ask you is to be happy, like i always want you to 

sometimes you find love 
sometimes you dont 
sometimes you say it out loud 
sometimes you wont