CURSED

i see a roof where the spiders web
where the birds nest
the floor where the dust shed
where the rodents rest

i hear the roof leak
wind blows and the door creak
i smell the empty air
the life saving tonic here n there

a far away wall crack shows sunshine n rain
weed grown on the broken window pane,
shows twinkles a glow worm at night
the creaking roof will rest on me is the only fright

yet i cant move to hold a dear
left have all the people who i called near
now iam just a old man with a broken back
counting my days to get into the sack

did not know once merry drunk will cost me so
driving back home i remember
life was cheers and lovely i remember
what i cant remember is what people say
i killed my family and this is how i pay

i survived the crash but lost my folks
wish i wasn’t drunk that day, on the rocks
i wouldn’t be on my bed on my birth day
miss the cake and candles they would have got me today

-kaveer